Wednesday, 29 March 2017

Dear Ex-Friends

Friends come and go. Some stay forever, some are about for a few years, and other are a mere blink of an eye. I firmly believe that everyone we meet and interact with, is for a purpose. May it be a lifelong friend or a stranger that so much as gives you a smile in passing.

I've had quite a few friends in my almost 25 years of life. I've currently got a best friend of 9 years, another best friend who I've known since I was 2 years old, a few others that have come into my life in the past year or so. There have been friends who I had in my life for long and short periods of time, all of which have in some way, helped me become who I am today.

So here is a little letter to some of my ex-friends who had a lasting impression on me, for right or wrong!

Friends for about seven years, we knew each other at pre-school and then all through primary and junior school! You were my very first best friend! We did a lot together, such as my first sleepover, first school dance and were about for each other's first crushes and boyfriends. We parted ways when we went to different secondary schools, but we're still friends on Facebook, and I'm so happy to see how your life has turned out! You were, and still are, one of the kindest people I've known, and you now take part in beauty pageants - watch out other girls!
You taught me what it was like to be a best friend and what a best friend is to someone. Though we don't speak anymore, you'll always be part of many special memories.

I first met you in the last few years of primary school and then through junior school we got to become friends. We also ended up going to the same secondary school together, in the same form group as well, and had a few classes together. As soon as we went to secondary school, you blew me aside for your more 'popular' friends and then when I went off and made new friends you got pissed off at me. You're the one that didn't want to be 'seen with someone' like me.
I'm glad that happened as you turned out to be SUCH A BITCH. You were always rude to anyone who wasn't in your 'clique', or had the right hair/clothes/accessories. You bullied my sister and when I stood up for her, you left her alone and then started on me. This lasted all of secondary school. 7 years of this.
But it is because of you being such a cow, that I grew such a thick skin. Nothing about me or how I was, was ever right to you. All the bitchiness and shit you threw at me, bounced off of me. I got quite impervious to your nasty words and ways. I remember checking your Facebook a few years after we all left school, and you hadn't changed a damn bit.

You were my best friend for about 9/10 years. Technically 11, but we didn't exactly speak a lot in the last 18 months of our friendship. I want to say that is mainly my fault. As soon as you left secondary school to go to collage, things started going a bit awry. It was harder to meet up due to school, and I will say it was also down to me wanting to see my at-the-time-boyfriend a lot. I'm to blame for that. I also want to say thank you for being there for me when me and him split up. What you done for me that day and the few months after, were so kind of you. Thank you.
And then that's when you met your now husband. I only met him about 5/6 months into your relationship, by which point you were living together. You both told me you were going to get engaged soon and I saw how happy you were. And that's when I think it happened. I saw you with someone who really made you happy - your new best friend. I didn't feel you needed me anymore, so I pushed you away.
And that's on me.
I was jealous you'd found someone who made you so happy and would spend the rest of you life with. I realised that the second I saw you both together for the first time. I see from your wedding pictures just how happy you both are. At the time, I was still single and felt so incredibly alone and self-conscious all the time. This was also about the same time I started having super bad panic attacks, and Nicola was the only one who I'd really spoken to about it, so she was the one I shared that with.
I am so sorry if you feel I pushed you away, shoved you aside for Nic, or treated you badly. You were my best friend for so long and through my teenage/young adult life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything in those 10 years - you're the friend I miss the most.

Oh you two. I honestly don't know what happened with us all. One day we were all best friends, the next you both pushed against it and then one day, you'd just gone. I still, to this day, do not have a clue what went wrong. Why you didn't want to be friends with us anymore. It's like something happened over that Christmas that I was clearly oblivious to and you just decided you didn't want to be friends anymore. There has been no closure here at all.
But, I don't regret the 3/4 years we had as friends and all the fun adventures we all had with each other. The mini holidays, the fun nights out, and the late nights chatting about life while semi-drunk on your sofa.

What you say to your former friends? Or have you always had the same friends since childhood? I'd love to know your stories, so please tell me! This was so fun to write and oddly therapeutic, as I usually find these things! Hope you have a great day and keep safe :)

post signature
Twitter | Instagram | Bloglovin | YouTube | Tumblr | Pinterest | Facebook

Monday, 27 March 2017

March Playlist

I've been listening to a lot of music over the past month month, so thought I would create this little list off all the songs I am loving right now! Click any of the titles to get taken to a YouTube video, so you can check them out for yourself :)

Like any of the songs above? Let me know! Hope you have a great day and keep safe :)

post signature
Twitter | Instagram | Bloglovin | YouTube | Tumblr | Pinterest | Facebook

Friday, 24 March 2017

Picture Perfect #11

It's Thursday night. I'm super tired and ready to climb into bed, and it's only 8:42pm... I've done two 6am starts at work in a row, and for some reason they've drained me! SOOO tired. However I need to get a post out and ready for tomorrow, so what's a better space filler than this month's Picture Perfect!?

It was due for next week, but I've bumped it up a few days instead! I've not taken many pictures at all this month, it's been a bit quiet in my slice of the world, so here's a few snaps of what I have taken pics of this month!

These are SO YUMMY

Had cheese and beans on toast, for the first time in years!

Showing off my selfie light!

Picked up a 'Mickey/Minnie Mouse' themed backpack

Easter egg lunch break with Josie!

Playing Guildhall with Mike & Cam!

I'm now ready to crawl into bed and get a good sleep, as I'm off out with Nicola tomorrow night! Yay!!

Hope you've all had a pretty nice March so far, and a good start to this year overall! What have you all been up to lately? Let me know! Hope you have a great day and keep safe :)

post signature
Twitter | Instagram | Bloglovin | YouTube | Tumblr | Pinterest | Facebook

Wednesday, 22 March 2017

Top 5 Fave Disney Movies

As some of you know, I'm off to Florida this year, which means we're going to be hitting up Disney World - which I am SUPER excited about. I've been having a few nights in with a Disney film of late, and these are my top 5 Disney films, which I've been loving for ages now!




Basil The Great Mouse Detective

Pirates of the Caribbean

Mulan, Tangled and Brave are all ones I can watch over and over again, even if it's just on as background noise while I do other things! I love to sing along to the Mulan songs at the top of my lungs, so imagine my disappointment when they announced there would be no songs in the live action movie version!?!!

Basil the Great Mouse Detective is a childhood favourite that I used to force my Dad to watch with me as Fidget scared the living shit out of me as a kid. Even at 24 years old, he stills creeps me out!

And Pirates... The first movie is amazing and I've seen it more times that I can count! The second one was pretty decent, the third was okay and the fourth... I've seen that once. Don't think I'll watch it a second time! I am excited to go on the Pirates ride in Magic Kingdom though.

What are your top 5 Disney movies? Do we have any that are similar? Let me know! Hope you have a great day and keep safe :)

Twitter | Instagram | Bloglovin | YouTube | Tumblr | Pinterest | Facebook

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...